Failure

There is nothing in the world,
nothing,
that is quite as bad as letting someone down.

Wait, there is something.

What is worse is the apprehension of letting someone down,
feeling that you're going to fail,
feeling that the world is about to roll off your shoulders,
and crack the floor of the universe.

This feeling is a monstrosity that eats you up inside,
it is an overwhelming guilt,
a guilt that is worse than the time your broke your granny's favorite tea pot,
worse than the time you stole from your best friend.

It is also shame.
A shame greater than the time you wet your pants in gym class.

You hope you will pull though, you desperately wish on ever star.

Your heart is heavy,
but you must keep hoping,
you must,
for the sake of that promised person.